this, i think, is the last time i'll mention B in this site.
i will try to change myself. a person who's not capable of loving and a person who needs not to be loved. papa Lord knows i tried everything, and i mean EVERYTHING just to win you back. but now, i can see a lost case when i see one and this is one of them.
goodbye, B. thank you because you are my first and last love. thank you for the inspiration. thank you for the forever you once showed me. i now realize that there is no forever, there is only ever lasting. thank you for all the heartaches. it made me strong. it made me dissimulate. it made me realize that love really isn't my thing.
pain is something that will haunt me everyday of my life. but now i'm used to it. all i have to do now is heal myself. i once said that the scarcity of you in my life sends shivers down my spine but in reality, it never really happened. all i felt was anger and pain.
i will use anger and pain to let go, to move on. i think i will have a hard time on this one but i'm sure i can do it.
i will not wait for you anymore. we can go on our lives as if we never knew each other. i think it's the best for the both of us.
finally, as promised, i will no longer blog about anything about you as a sign of sacrifice. i'm sure you'll gonna do your sacrifice as well. goodbye.
*caloy is on hiatus. he will only return if he will discover the true meaning of love, sacrifices and blueberry muffins.