i dont know.
i really should care less.
but what the heck is this?
i am actually doing the same old mistakes.
i always say to myself that i will now leave my old self and my old ways behind.
and yet, here i am, confessing that i did it again.
this is a pain in the ass.
i cant get out of it.
it really does.
if i can just spit it out and leave it, i`ll do it quickly.
but it takes longer than i presumed.
i now feel like i will be like this forever.
is this the life that i've been working out for years?
will this be the outcome of all my efforts and hard work?
i`m tired of searching for someone who will recognize my worth
as an individual
and as a human.
i always say that i dont need help
that i`m strong.
and i dont need anybody.
i really need someone to ease the pain.
even just for a minute.
so i can forget the bleeding.