pain and agony inside me..

Im living in someone else's life..
this is the exact opposite of what i really wanted to be..
I don't know myself anymore..
I just don't know..

I can't stand this..
I need to go away..
I need to find myself..
and I have to act fast..

This stupid thing called "EMOTION" makes me sick..

Can't say anything..

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I tried to be existential sometimes..
reflecting what lies beneath myself..
but it's no use..

I need something..
something stronger than that..


I know what that thing is and I know where can it be found..



it's inside me..







-don' let me grew tired of waiting..because when I say I'll stop..I really mean it.